Has there ever been a time in your life when you seem to have no understanding of why things are going the way they are? Well, honestly, I have. It's the time when you think you know what you want, and you do a good job putting up a front about it, but deep down you just have no idea how you are even going to get through the current situation. At these times, I am so strong some days and on other days I feel weak and down. I can't seem to cry - its as though I have cried out all the tears I had so many times before. I pray and I await a Word of Instruction from God, but sometimes it's as though I don't even hear His voice. Have you ever been there?
For me, I have been learning though that I have to be still. It is much harder than I thought. I am learning that I have to stay within the boundaries that I am limited to by my humanity and let God reign in His territory. I have to stop trying to do God's job and let Him control my destiny... These words are so easy to advise other people, but when it's you in the situation it appears so much harder to adhere to.
At this point in my life, I am facing a test. I am going through everyday uplifted in God's strength and peace. I am dealing with different things that I am now finding out had been wallowing on the inside of me for a while.
I guess what I am learning most of all, is that as we go through the most difficult periods in life, it doesn't do us any good to blame the people who appear against us, but to look within and see what God is doing in us as individuals. Each test is to take us to new places of self advancement and betterment. Embrace the tests...Let God mould you and shape you to the perfect specimen He envisioned you to be.
This is true Lis and speaks volumes....As local gospel singer Curtis Jordan sang in his song “Trust me”, he says “The Tests and the trials shall come but I will never leave thee nor forsake thee, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord, thy God”....those are perhaps the two most impacting line of the song for me and I agree with everything you have said above.
ReplyDeleteTests as we will learn Lis are not there to bring us to defeat but to strengthen us, build our character, build our faith, bring us closer to the Lord and for us to trust him completely during our tribulations....
in Isaiah 43:2 we know the scripture says “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched nor will the flame burn you, for I am the LORD your God.”
I want you to know Lis that you are in my prayers and I wanna encourage you to keep strong in the mighty name of Jesus. He is our Strength, Peace, Love, Joy and Comfort. As you rightly said above, He alone knows all our needs and we have to let him into our lives so he can mould us in to person he had us destined to be.
With reference to your entry on “We Have Hope”, my mom often says “Once you are alive, there is Hope in Jesus”.....There's a contemporary gospel song I heard at Joel Osteen's church recently and the lyrics says, “Hope is an anchor for my soul in the storm. In everything I trust you Jesus. Your name is higher, your word is unfailing, all my hope is in you”
Keep strong Lis and God Bless!